Friday, June 16, 2006
is it everyone around here, or is it just me?
the more they try to probe, the less you want to say. don't expect me to talk about it just because people assume that talking about it is going to make you feel better. well guess what. it just makes me feel worse.
i never thought i'd be posting here again. part of the reason is cos i never want anyone to see this page. it's not like they'd understand anyway.
it just seems so unfair. oh heck, i am so over this.
Posted at
4:16 PM
Sunday, March 19, 2006
i didn't want to go to church today, and i got it.
i'm not for sulking childishly and looking depressed. i just feel like it, so what?
it's not like anyone fucking cares. they wouldn't even care if i jumped off a building and died.
i'm just feeling really lousy and cryable okay? are you happy? i have attitude problems, all right?
but not before my parents started acting like it was some crime not to. i just didn't speak to them after being dragged out of bed.
so okay, it's not just the muscle aches.
it's the people. in the youth group. i've always felt i didn't click with them, and i was right. when i was out with them i sometimes felt like running away. i already did that to my friends anyway, so why not them? but somehow i just couldn't bring myself to. maybe because we're all brothers and sisters in christ.
i do love God, i really do. and i'm ashamed i didn't go to church today and tell him that.
PEOPLE WHO NEED TO BE SHOT
everyone whom i've felt like saying "fuck you" to.
Posted at
10:11 AM